Letter - 1: Dear Mr. AY

Date: 05/02/2024

Dear Mr. AY,

You stole my spot. When I saw you for the first time, you were sitting there under the tree, wearing a black hoodie and holding your head.

Gradually, I started seeing you around campus a lot. Suddenly, I began noticing you everywhere. You are always around, wherever I go on in this campus. You’re usually alone and quiet, even when you’re with your friends, classmates, or batchmates.

I learned from one of my classmates that you drink. Then, from an email written by DVY, I discovered that you had attempted to end your life. Later, I found out your full story—falling head over heels for a girl, going through an on-and-off relationship with her, being cheated on by her with her ex during summer vacation, and then trying to end it all—or perhaps, end your pain.

These days, I see you a lot in the dining hall (we call it Mess), sometimes in the cafeteria or at the basketball court. Why am I even noticing you? I don’t know. Why am I always thinking about you lately? I don’t know. Is it a crush or just sympathy? I don’t know, nor do I want to know, because I’m certain I’ll be the one who will end up getting hurt in the end.

Since I don’t even exist in your world, I’m ending this—whatever it is—right here, right at this moment.

I wish you success in life. I hope that once you leave this campus, you achieve whatever you want in life.

Good luck!

With a sincere heart,

Professor Rose

Update (11/18/2024): He graduated this year, as he was a year senior to me. He’s now working somewhere reputable, living his life…to the fullest or not…I don’t know, nor do I want to know.

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